Today I got a random Facebook message from a high school friend essentially asking if we were still friends. She started off her message with basically telling me I'm a beautiful person and she wants me in her life...
A little backstory: This is an ASMS friend. I've known her since I was 15 years old. There's no "beef" with this girl. I'm not mad at her. She isn't mad at me. She's basically just fallen casualty to (1) I'm terrible at keeping in touch with people (2) we've grown up to be somewhat different people. But there's no problem between us. She lives about 45 minutes away and I'd be open to grabbing a drink or going to a concert any time. Truly.
But her message, which was sweet, sincere, and unexpected got me to thinking. I spend a lot of time feeling unappreciated, unwanted, and sometimes even unloved. I, like many people I suspect, spend a lot of time focusing on what I don't have, rather than being thankful for the things I do have.
I think what bothers me most is how quick I am to cling to or dwell on unhealthy relationships and attachments, but let the ties that truly matter in the long run fall to the wayside. Like a middle school girl who'll sacrifice true friendship for the chance at being in the in-crowd. I've spent a lot of time wishing I could be seen and accepted. And today it occurred to me that I am seen, accepted, and appreciated--I just couldn't see it due to my obsession with who didn't see, didn't accept, and didn't appreciate. I was missing the beauty of the bigger picture by staring at all the little imperfect details.
Why is it so much easier to believe the negative about ourselves/our lives, especially when positive truths are staring us right in the face? Where does that come from?
Just something I was thinking about...
